Today, I met a new friend who came over to visit me. Finally after so many non-starters, I've been babbied like I always wanted to be and I had a wonderful time. I was dressed in a short dress, with my nap nap very visable underneath and when I was naughty, I was put in reins so that I could not run away or remove my nap nap.

Its all very well saying that you will do A, B, or C in an e-mail or on instant messenger, but there's nothing like doing it for real. It really does put a bigger smile on your face!

I find it astonishing how many people you speak to will baby you, but in return, want you to baby them.

For me, its a concept I can't get to grips with, especially with me being quite short. Often the person is taller and heavier than I am, and it looks a bit like the ventriloquist dummy, with the ventriloquist on his lap! It just doesn't work.

I know people want the sensations that you are feeling when you are baby, they are amazing. I just get incredibly jealous of the other person if there are two of us, because I completely change when in baby mode. A lot of me switches off and I do become almost a different person.

Moving on, I've had a few nice conversations from here this week and they possibly may lead onto better things, although I never believe anything until it actually happens.

I do however, look forward to that first time when my new daddy or mummy takes me under their wing and the baby is released again! 

Its been an interesting first week on this website, and I've had some interesting chats with a few people now. Its been refreshing to hear from people who are into the scene and understand that its a totally different concept from a sexual fantasy.

To me, its a release from the troubles of the world. I can't baby myself and I can't do cyber. I find that the personal interaction and the closeness that develops between you and another person is what makes it so enjoyable.

I can change my clothes and pull on a nappy and the way I act and feel completly changes. Its like letting go of the burdens life puts onto you. But like most experiences in life, its better shared than done alone.

If my luck's in, someone may be waiting for me, just around the corner!

I joined the site, as I had not been able to find what I had been seeking. I'd been looking everywhere for someone who wanted a baby girl, but either they were too rough with me or they were only interested in using it as an excuse for sex.

I've asked myself constantly, why if people wouldn't have sex with a little baby, why they'd see it as a prequisite of this lifestyle, that I'd have to have sex with them or give them O or A, both which I hate.

I take no pleasure in sex, but everytime I baby up, I find a new calm within myself, and its not uncommon for me to be asleep within minutes of changing.

If only I could find that world a lot more, life would be so much easier!